It isn't the same.

Apparently, my bestfriend, Mei-Mei did move to Kentucky -.- It just broke my heart to see her walk out that door on her last day of school. The second day without her here with me, just made me cry my eyes out. I just couldn't hold it all in. I didn't know that I would end up like this. I guess things happen for a reason. I just have to learn that people drift apart from eachother & I just have to face the fact that she's gone & learn how to move on. I just have to remember all those good times we had together in my heart because one day we will reunite & I would be looking forward to that<3 Things just aren't the same without her. I guess I'm trying to say is that she's my lucky charm. She encourages me towards what I'm going for. It just went all so fast. Where did it all go to? Those stupid fights we had? Or just having the time of our lives together? Just thinking about it makes it so hard to find the answer to. I mean what kind of friendship just has the good sides to it instead of the bad? Well, besides that I just wish that I could see her one more time & hang out with all of our friends <3 I just have to live my life without her & act like everything is alright.

End of Summer.

Summers almost over and I can honestly say that this is a Summer that I will never forget. I've had my bad times and my good, so that's what made my Summer unforgettable. So news so far is that my bestestesterest friend in the whole world is probably moving to Kentucky! I don't want her to move >_< She's the only person that could understand me, the one that's a sister to me, but most of all the one I could tell everything to. Hopefully she doesn't, that would just break my heart:( We've had so many good times together that I still remember. From the funny moments, stupid moments, & even the bad moments. Well, I'm gonna stop thinking about that, but registration is on Thursday, so hopefully I see her there & our moms could talk her out of moving :D OH & I'll be getting a haircut with my Ate Nikki on that day too:) but I don't know what kind D: Well it's getting late & I really need to catch up on my sleep, schools coming up! BYE BYE NIGHTY NIGHT!

Family.

Family is always there for you no matter what. But I guess it comes to a time where it just goes a bit too far. It gets so annoying. My parents have been going through the same problem over and over again. It's always about freaking money! I'm just so sick of it. Why can't we ever just be a normal family? If only just my dad could just change his attitude toward my moms side of the family, everything would just be perfectly fine. But no he just has to be selfish! Sure he's my dad and I'm supposed to love him because he brought me to this world, but I've just had enough of his childish acts. Everytime my moms side of the family needs money because somebodys sick, my dad doesn't even freaking care! and when it comes to his side of the family he's greedy and gets mad at my mom when she doesn't wanna give money for what he did to her. Do they think money grows on freaking trees here?! GOD, we work too don't you know that?! If you can't afford the money to go to that freaking field trip then don't bother asking for money. It's not like that trip was mandatory anyway, so why bother go? We earned that money and we deserved it. Maybe you guys should just start working hard as we do here. You guys are always depending on us for money! UGH, I just don't know what to do-_____-

Venting.

You know what I don't get? Why people just hate so much. It's so annoying! Why hate when you could just tell the person what your problem you have with them. I mean like my cousin just called me what 3 in the morning last night just to say how bitchy my favorite cousin was. She said that just cause she said we were gonna use her as bait she took it personally. Does she have any humor in her? I guess not since she took it the wrong way-____- Just cause my favorite cousin told her off about her freaking boyfriend that lives freaking one thousand miles away from her! I mean now seriously that's pathetic. If your willing to have a relationship at least have a real one not a freaking long distance. She expects me to keep my mouth shut about it to her mom. Pft, her mom has other people watching her doesn't she know that? I mean my mom told me that her mother is all suspicious about it already. Just watch once she finds out about it I will freaking laugh, I am not even kidding. She just blames my favorite cousin about everything just because she has this amazing boyfriend and she has a stupid and flirty one. It's not her fault that she ACTUALLY chose the right one that actually loves her for who she is. Now she's saying all this crap about her like 'Oh I'm not gonna call her ate anymore pft she's a bitch.' Come on your freaking 11 years old! And your already cussing more than I am. I know I'm young to actually cuss too, but look at you, your calling people dumbasses, bitches , assholes, and shitheads. How do you look at yourself in the mirror? What kind of friends do you hang out with? Your suppose to set a good example to others and here you are acting like a like a freaking hoe! I don't care if you even read this because you need to see and hear how your acting. Come on now she's our cousin! Why are you talking behind her back? Once you see her your all nice, what's up with that? Your just being a two faced jerk! I think that's the only reason why you can't even get a boyfriend in real life. There I said it! I know that's cold. But look at yourself, you've changed. If you just change your attitude toward others and stop treating them like crap maybe you'll get nice friends. I mean I remember you telling me 'Theresa you have alot of nice friends' Yeah I have alot of nice friends because I choose the right one. I've heard things about you alot. You think the things your friends do is right, but its wrong! I know that you know better than this. How could you stoop that low to do bad things? What happened to the good cousin I know. I want her back. I mean now I don't even know who you are? I don't like the new one. Your always moody and you yell alot about stupid things. You don't even have manners. You always freaking boss my little brother around. Who do you think you are? Your the laziest person I know I swear. I don't even know what to do with you. I'm done with you. I'm sick and tired of dealing with your crap. I try and give you advice on what to do to make your life better, but you don't even take it. Fine, if you don't wanna take it, don't ask me for anything anymore. I'm sick of it. I'm done with you. There I said it. So go out there and be free and do whatever you want to. Do you think that's gonna make you into a better person? Pft, get a life.

Last Day Of School June 12, 2009

So, today was the last day of school until the new school year. Lots of hugs, but most of all tears. This year went by so fast! Where did this all go? We spent all our time arguing over these stupid things when we should be making memories that will last forever. I've always wondered why in elementary school we didn't act this way and now we start to cry when it gets to the last day of school when we used to smile and have that big fat smile on faces. I just can't believe that I actually regretted for Summer to come, I thought that I was looking forward to it, but then when I realized that I would be missing all my friends a lot, I thought that school couldn't just end like that. All my friends I made this year, they could be drifting apart from me like what always happens in new school years. I just hate that. I just want my old friends to stay as my friends. Even though that there was drama now and then, but other than that my 1st year at Bella Vista was the best year yet. It wasn't the way I would imagine it, all my friends are one of a kind and all my teachers were awesome. Seeing myself walk out that door when school ended, I felt like crying my eyes out. Friends moving and friends moving on to high school. Missing those hugs from the people I love and miss, I have to wait for 2 months for those hugs. I just can't wait that long. I guess I pretty much loved school. Having the most unforgettable memories with friends is so enjoying. It's just unbelievable that I survived the sixth grade. I just hope that Summer goes by fast because I will be missing friends like crazy. Just one thought came in mind that always haunts my mind everytime I think of all the memories I had in sixth grade, why did my friends and I have to fight over things when we could have been reministing about the good things? Couldn't we have thought twice about what we were fighting about?

1st Year At Bella Vista<3

My first year at Bella Vista was the best year yet. I know that there was drama at first, but I got through the year with a good ending. There are so much that I'm going to miss. The laughs, memories, but most of all the new people I've met are all going. That's going to be the hard part to let go next school year. It's like a puzzle piece is lost and nothing else in the world can never replace that piece. Having them as friends was a good advantage for surviving the 6th grade because they would always tell me what to do when I would always get stuck in situations. I know that sooner or later I would have to learn how to let go of it, but it's not as easy as it looks. Having to spend so much time with them and making so many memories it's all so hard to just 'forget' because moments like these shouldn't just me forgotten they should be remembered. The worst part is that when I go to high school, most of them would be in different schools, which is the part I hate the most about it. Why does it have to end up like this? I don't want to loose friends I cared about. It happened to me once, I don't want to make that a second .They were in my life and I know that they were meant to be in it. I guess I do have to face the fact that 'everything happens for a reason' and that 'friends come and go'. There would be another time where this would happen and I guess I would have to be strong and face the fact that I guess it wasn't meant to be. The thing I hate about it is that I've shedded enough tears for them, but the tears that come down just won't bring them back. I guess that even though they're gone, there will always be a spot in my heart for them, so I wouldn't have to forget them. I just wish if they could just stay here, but that's not gonna happen. I just have to learn to let go and move on.

Mei-Mei Mijares

Dang girl our friendship has been strong ever since the first grade! As best friends I think that we pretty much look alike! That isn't a bad thing right? I mean like everyone gets mixed up with us. Anyways, Mei-Mei's my best friend and nobodies, she's ALL mine. Not kidding. I bet you that you don't know her as much as I do. Ha ha, yeah I thought so. Just kidding. Dang so many memories we had together! Remember 'Interesting, yes very interesting' If you don't get it then your slow. Just kidding. By the way, that's Me and Mei-Mei's insider. So, even though we've had a lot of good memories your probably thinking that we've hadn't had any bad right? Well we had some bad ones, but we forgave and forgot, which was the right thing to do. We won't let one stupid thing get in the way of our friendship. Throughout the years we've been into these situations where we needed help and we were there for each other through thick and thin. I know that she will always have my back and never let me fall like what used to happen to me. I can always count on her no matter what and she can count on me. A girl like her is someone I could never let down for all the things she has done for me. There wasn't a day in my life where I could remember when she has ever let me down and that's what I love about her. Even though she can get a little annoying, I still love her. I mean I do admit that I could get annoying too, but she still loves me. The little things she does to make me happy are the things that make her HER. I don't know what kind of person would ever talk behind her back because she is such an amazing girl that I could never get mad at her for more than a day. Without her, I think my life would be a mess. Even though this year wasn't what I expected it to be, she somehow made it way better. I know that we have different classes and other friends now, but she will always be in my heart and I will never forget her. A best friend like Mei-Mei should never be forgotten or ever be replaced with. She is such a true friend: she's there for me when no body else was, she likes me for who I am, she puts up with my crap, but most of all she NEVER replaces me with somebody else and I know that's fact. I'm lucky that I have her as MY best friend. The most special thing about her is that she doesn't talk behind my back, even though I do something wrong to her or to someone else, she still doesn't talk behind me. Now, that's what I call a best friend and a true friend. I mean like I do the most stupid things and she still loves me no matter what and it still doesn't bother her. I mean jealousy won't get in the way when it comes to us. Overall, Mei-Mei is the best person in my world and she will always be my best friend and if you decide to hate on her or whatever, I will be your worst nightmare, no lie, I don't like seeing Mei-Mei sad. So, Mei-Mei I love you forever and ever for all eternity.