Giving up .

It's happened to me multiple times, the one being broken up with. I'm tired of my heart being the only one that's hurt in the situation and having to wait weeks for it to heal. You don't know how many times I've been through this. At first, I get all happy, but then sooner or later I get sad and depressed. I hate going through that stage. I just wish that I could go back and fix what I did wrong. Every time I would vent to my best friend, Riana, she would always tell me that I should never give up on love. But, it's just hard for me to see myself like I was before. I'm afraid to get hurt again. A heart like mines, can't take anymore of this. All I want is someone I could be together with that won't waste my time. Someone that would like me for who I am. Someone that could actually say 'I Love You' and ACTUALLY mean it. Someone that could be my everything. The only thing I'm afraid of is to get hurt again. I know giving up like that isn't right, but if you were me in these situations I get, you would feel the same way as I do right now. I've been through so much, falling in like, crushing, and getting broken up with. The tears can't help, but fall every time I would try to stop them. I just wish that all of this would just stop. I've been thinking that I guess my parents were right. When you do fall in love or like in such an early age, you eventually do get hurt. And that I learned that I have to be patient when it DOES come to liking someone or loving someone. I have to make sure that it's the right person that I'm looking for or else.